Is God Actually 'Good'
Every now and then I get to share my testimony with people. Sometimes its the quick and dirty version and sometimes it's the lengthy and detailed version. But the outline is always the same: traumatic childhood leading me to question God's goodness (or even the existence of God), followed by my destructive and damning habits of early adulthood as I was searching for some kind of acceptance or satisfaction, leading into late college when I felt this unusual feeling of guilt/conviction and a call to obedience, and eventually ending at the moment I found myself on the carpet of my loft apartment surrendering to the Jesus that I found holding me and whispering to me, "Child, my love for you has nothing to do with your circumstances." It all suddenly made sense to me in a way that only those who have truly experienced that power of the Holy Spirit can understand. In the duration of a few months (or even in a few hours), I didn't become any wiser or more schol